Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in Amanda's LiveJournal:

Monday, February 2nd, 2004
6:12 pm	Howdy doody tootie fruities! Yeah, cheesy huh? Yeah, that's what I thought too, but I'm just in a goofy kind of mood. I'm not sure why. I think I have too much on my plate right now and my brain's kind of going into overdrive mush, ya know? So anyhow, I'm beginning to realize that 18 credits may be a bit overkill and that accounting REALLY sucks when you have a shitty prof. So anyhow, you can probably tell how school's going. You know what? I just realized that I really want to have my own room next year. Me, Tanya and Jackie were thinking of having two rooms to share together--one to sleep in and one kind of like a living room. Well, to be honest with y'all I don't think I could handle living with Tanya a whole nother year. I think I'd go insane. So this new girl, Cassie, moved in two doors down this semester and even she's realized how shitty of an attitude Tanya has. Well, not shitty, just she's so damn crabby all the time. It's like she has PMS three weeks out of the month and is normal only one. Get what I'm saying? So anyhow, now that I've vented enough, I should get back to the grind (what?!) and do some more homework. Hope to chat with ya all soon! (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 25th, 2004
10:50 pm	I am a burning ball of rage!!! OK, how do I start this...AAAAAAAAGGGGGHH!!!!! I am just immensely PISSED right now. I was just talking to Anna and I was telling her about all of my problems with my parents and why I'm hating them SO much right now. I just need to vent. So, here goes. REASON 1: THEY WON'T LET GO! They just can't. They still treat me like I'm a child when I'm at home. "When will you be home? Don't be too late." And too late to them is like 10:00. Yeah, Mom, sure. REASON 2: (and this is probably the biggest reason) THEY DON'T APPROVE OF MY RELATIONSHIP WITH NICK. Now, this in itself is enough to get my blood boiling. I don't understand it. Why don't they like him? What's not to like? His age? He's two fucking years younger than me. Like that's that big of a difference. And one would think that if we truly didn't love each other and weren't meant to be that it wouldn't have worked out. We would've known by now. I mean, I've been away to college for half a year now, and we're making it work pretty damn well. Can't they see that? They're blind as hell. REASON 3: THEY WON'T TELL ME ABOUT MY TWIN BROTHERS. Yeah, apparently, when I was about a year old, my parents had twin boys. SOMETHING happened to them, I'm not sure what, but it's this big mystery. It pisses me off. REASON 4: MY DAD IS JUST AN ASSHOLE. I just realized this last weekend. He said he was going to help me change the oil in my car but did he? NO! He went fishing with the boys. This just made me realize how little he really cares about me. He doesn't give a damn about me or what I do. And he gets mad for me not talking to him. Well, do you blame me? REASON 5: THEY DON'T EVEN SEEM LIKE THEY CARE WHEN I'M HOME, BUT THEN THEY BITCH WHEN I GO SEE NICK SAYING I'M NEVER HOME WHEN I'M HOME. Well, generally, I only go home to see Nick, and since they have this thing against him, they can't see that. I mean, it is my family, but Nick is my future family. There's just a time in a person's life when they have to get away from home, leave the nest. And that time for me is NOW! I'm sick and tired of being under their scrutinizing eyes. It's time for me to take control of my life. And it is mine DAMN IT! They just can't get it through their heads. I realize I'm the oldest and its hardest with the oldest, but DAMN! Cut me some slack here. I'm just SO FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW!!! So, you can see how my life is going right now. I just need to get away from it all. Well, all except Nick. He's the only great part of my life right now. Things are just so wonderful with him. I just wish my parents could see that. It makes me so mad! Well, I suppose that's enough of me bitching. I'll have to get back to you all later. Adios! (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 21st, 2004
11:16 pm	Hello to all! I'd just like to ask how everyone's doing. Things are going pretty great here. I was a little overwhelmed the beginning of this week because I had a lot of homework, but all is well now. I have tomorrow off, and I plan to spend it in the studio working on some art stuff. Monday was AMAZING! Nick and I celebrated our 1 year anniversary, so that was pretty great. I am like the happiest person in the world! You know what bugs me? I was just looking at my calendar and you know how all the holidays are in red? Well, why do they have all Sundays in red too? That's not a holiday. I mean to some people it may be, but what about Jewish people? They might take offense to that. It's this damn Christian country. Well, I'll be getting my art site up and running fairly soon. It's up now, but I don't have any pictures on it yet. When I do, I'll let you all know what the web address is. I guess that's about it for me tonight. Have a good one! (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 15th, 2004
10:49 am	I'm new! Well, I just wanted to write something really quick because I'm new to this whole journal thing. I hope Pam and Kraig see this! I love you guys! Write to me if ya see this OK? (3 Comments |Comment on this)